“现在的苦将会是我以后幸福的代价~”
预了有这样的结果就勇敢地去接受。。。。
千万不要放弃。。这只是开始。。
不是永远也是这样，也不想永远这样。。。
Yes..The news had out...
And it is the same as i expected...
No doubt once i knew it...My mood were kinda down intially..
But then...I remember those words which i ever told myself....
The bitterness you having right now is the pay back of the sweetness of mine in the future..
I must hang on and have faith on myself...
I knew this is hard and i have zero experience on what i am doing right now...
I knew i have to catch up very hard and fast ASAP...
In the same time I have to worry about some personal stuffs..
IF i am the PAST me....
I would feel super down,depressed,emo,and everything which is bad...
I even dont have the motivation to work double hard on it...
I dont even want to overcome the problem..
Watch myself get drown day by day.....
But today...I have to tell everybody...
Vivian has grown up...
With you,you and yours supports....
And with my own heart...
I want to overcome it myself...
I want to work more hard to have a better life..
I want to make myself more happy and enjoy but work in the same time..
I really want to enjoy the process from bitter to sweet...
This is how i want to be..
This is my destiny..
Doesn't matter am i in love with somebody else..
I just wanna put this aside...
and focus on my own dreams...
Mummy and sis always told me..
"Have you own dream 1st before you have OUR dream"
I try to digest the words...
I understand what they mean and their concern towards me.... =')
For the past few years I've been always showing my WEAK part of me...
Because I used to be loved by someone else...and even doesnt know how to take care of myself by the end of the days...
I always cry when problems came to me...I dont know how to deal with it...
I always hoping that someone would stand out and rescue me..
NOW..i think back...
Why am i being so weak and soft hearted all the time as actually i can be stronger..
Why would i don't even know how to take care of myself when nobody around....
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^_^Sounds stupid huh? hehe~i know...
I've been gone through all these almost half years....
Only this few weeks i started to be more aggressif and stay positive...
1st of all i have to thanks my dear cousin sis...
She taught me how to be strong...
She brought me to her company and taught me alot...
From zero to basic.
From lazy to hard working
From being quiet to talkative
Ahhh...so sweet and "spicy" of here LOL..
2nd,I have to thanks to my dear parents...
I am always speechless on what they had done to me..
Only my parents can make my tears drop out within 10 seconds(Proud of it~ Teehee =p)..
I dont know why but they always gave me a call when i am very depressed and feel lonely..
I always hold back my tears when i am talking on the phone with them..Even now....I.....urrhh.. =')
Anyway~Thank you for always supporting me and believe me in what i am doing..
I really feel i am the most HANG FUK daughter in the world..♥♥♥
Lastly...I would like to say a big THANK to myself and would like to give myself applaus~!
Because i willing to change and accept who am I really ~! =D
I listen to my own heart...I give myself warmness....
The most important..I gave myself 2nd chance...
And i did it~! very first step^^
I believe i can do better in the future...
I promise myself would LOVE myself more and more...
Thank you to all my friends being nice and warm to me whenever i had sad expression on my face =D
Thank you for you guys patient~
Thank you for forgiving me what i did in the past(which is extremely i feel wrong)
BIG BIG THANKS TO ALL OF YOU....
Never give up on your dreams
Dreams can always be true if you have faith on it ~ ^_^*
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