24/11/2011
tired day for me....
last night didnt sleep well due to we are rushing our assignment....
and err guess what~
the thing that matters me and makes me feel very uneasy..
i had finally solve it..
well...after i went out the office..make a called to my mum..
i broke into tears again~=D..wtfish..useless..
But yea...it makes me more secure and not that stress after receiving calls from my mum...
and then we went back to AMOS'd studio...and get our job done together =D...
B y the next morning~we took alot of funny pics...
just to release our stress and sleepiness
OKAY...ENOUGH FOR THE FUNNY ONE lol...
The next thing which make me relief or more stress is...
I accidentally found out that he....my ex..had a new gal....
and urrr....my feelings on that time?
Of course..i feel heart broken for one second.....
I SWEAR....JUST FOR ONE SECOND..
and after i knew..there are still lotta friends out there supporting me...
getting to know that i am actually not alone..
I feel blessed..=)
GOD actually loves me for givng me such a challenging matter....
and yet...he still so kind to gave me so many angels around me to comfort me..
I feel warm....i wont feel alone...at least..i didnt turn emo becoz of that..
Just wish that HE wont appear in my dream coz my dream affect me way too much..
SO........oh woah.....i've been gone through lotta shits...
But...in the future..ME BET.....thats lots more cases or matter which 100 % more harder than this...
TRY to learn from the life....it isnt easy..but we have to fully enjoy it..
DO what i want for now......
I GUESS...I WILL BE FINE..
NO~!!! I SHOULD BE FINE.........
because i already chose to LET IT GO....and......
MOVE ON......with a big big step and a big big smile....
Hi its me again...
Wonder why i updated my blog so fast?
Coz i feel like i cant handle the inner pain of mine anymore...
I feel like it going to burst and goes along with my stupid tears...
I DID IT FOR YOU....yes..its true...
December 3rd...I met a guy from facebook which his name call JS...
He's a korean canadian...and we goes along well..
He urrr......he...is UNEXPLAINABLE.....
of course...he is the most amazing thing that happens to me for year 2010....
And with a blink of an eye....December of 2011 is around the corner...
In between these year...theres tons of matter happens...and it never break our bond...i mean..friendship..
Me and him have a special relationship...More than a friend..but unfortunately Less than a lover..
Thats the only way which can describe us best...</3
Today once again...he made me brokedown....
Not because he hurt me...not because he scold me...
It is just because he actually really understand how do i feel....Thats what i feel so touched...
He told me this :' you've always been there for me... and yet...no matter how bad i treat you....you always there. No matter how many times i ignore you...you are there.... no many how many times i say i hate you.....you are always there..
We both are from the different country...
We both are 6 years different from our age...
We both are different races which he is korean and i am a typical chinese..
We dont have any related or whatsoever...
We knew each other by ourself...
And thats already proved that it is totally a miracle thats happens to me...
I told him before once...My wish for my birthday is to meet him under a christmas tree in a snowy days..
Souds stupid again huh? But you know what..it is what actually motivates me to not leaving him alone no matter what...no matter how he treat me...=')
I am not a smart girl....what i did it just straight from my mind..
Thats why when sometimes i hurt myself....i felt it...but i still do it...hahahahahaha~pathetic...
anyway.....
Minutes turn to hours
Hours turn to days
Knew what I have to do
Couldn’t find the words to say
We had the perfect story
Stories have an end
Had to turn the page
Cause to keep you was a sin,
oh
You know i loved you with
everything that I had
But what you needed, I
couldn’t be, had you bad
I cared enough about you,
to give you the chance
To find someone who
cares
I broke your heart
I did it for you
Tore us apart
I did it for you
Just walked away
I did it for you
Oh, for you
You wanted more than my
everything, I did it for you
Someone you knew I
couldn’t be, I did it for you
Why don’t you ever
understand me
But it’s true, it’s true
I did it for you, for you
I could say I’m sorry, wouldn’t
mean a thing
Tell you what you wanna hear
Baby, what you wanted
wasn’t from me
Held you by a string, had to
cut you loose
Cause forever is something
we can’t be
You know I loved you with
everything that I had
But what you needed, I
couldn’t be, had you bad
I cared enough about you,
to give you the chance
To find someone who
cares
I broke your heart
I did it for you
Tore us apart
I did it for you
Just walked away
I did it for you
Oh, for you
You wanted more than my
everything, I did it for you
Someone you knew I
couldn’t be, I did it for you
Why don’t you ever
understand me
But it’s true, it’s true
I did it for you, for you
They say the ones that you love
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Are the ones that you hurt the most
For all the pain that
I’ve caused you
Baby, I’m sorry
I did it for you
I did it for you
Tore us apart
I’m so sorry babe
I did it for you
Just walked away
I did it for you
For You
You wanted more than my
everything, everything
I did it for you
Someone you knew I couldn’t
be, I did it for you
Why don’t you ever
understand me
But it’s true, it’s true
I did it for you
Once again.... I almost left my blog until it is almost rotten.... My bad luck in 2011 never end... I remember when i started this blog at last year december...and someone told me that 2011 will be a great year. Yet..the person who told this to me also left me... Hmm...Nt to say left me but ....i just gave up.....
Bad news keep rolling to me and i tried my best to solve it with a broad smile .... I TRIED....I TRIED..AND TRIED... but it will never end... just like today.........
For the past 2 days...i keep dreaming about something bad and kinda memories which i dont even wanna look back.. the dreams were like so real until i woke up with all sweating...... But the most shocking things is that i never knew that the nightmare which i am afraid of will become reality...
Whole day of me never laugh nor smile..... Its like my time is all PAUSED...... I get stucked....What lecturer taught me today i barely listen.... even if he tried to make me smile or laugh...it just didnt works..
I never mean to burden anybody or anyone... I try to settle my own emotion when i am alone....but..
I am afraid to look at myself through the mirror when i cried or crying..... Because i cant help myself..i dont know how to comfort myself...
My emotions burst out everything.....
I knew i shouldnt be so weak infront of you guys....so..sorry....
I felt like...the wonderland which i always dreamt of...is getting more futher now....
Maybe i need sometime to calm myself down....
Please....if dear god cooperate with me...
Please....give me a good and happiness life...
Please...I will work hard to reach my wonderland.....
for now....i need to be strong......no matter in inner or outer part of my body....
God....they are an amounts of korean cuisine and recipe inside..
guess what...i saw my favourite korean side dish food recipe there!!!!
Its named call
Spinach side dish / 시금치나물 / Sigeumchi namul
which some how looks like this^^yummylicious~~❤❤❤❤
SO...i decided to cook this today..XD
quickly went to the supermarket and bought the ingredients after i finished my work...
the ingredients for this dish is like below^^
1 bunch of spinach
2 cloves of garlic
1 green onion
1.5 tbs of soy sauce
SO..lets starts yea!!!!^^
1st>>> cleaned up the spinach and cut off its root 1st^^ immerse them in a pot of water which had added sea salt in it..
2nd>>>mince the 2 cloves of garlic for preparation..
3rd>>>chop the green onions too
4th>>>In boiling water, add 1 ts of salt and blanch a bunch of spinach for 30 seconds after removing dead the leaves and roots.(too bad my pot is too small and i have to do it for 3 times>.<)
5th>>>>Drain the cooked spinach and rinse it in cold water 3 times, and squeeze it gently to get the water out.
6th>>>Cut the spinach a few times and set it aside.
7th>>>Place 2 cloves of minced garlic, 1 chopped green onion, 1.5 tbs of soy sauce and ½ tbs sesame oil in a large bowl and mix them all up with a spoon.^^
8th>>>Place the spinach into the sauce and mix by hand.woolala~the BEST part!
final step..Transfer the into a tupperware and sprinkle ½ tbs of toasted sesame seeds.
and YOU ARE DONE!!!^_^
p/s: fuh....i make my pyjamas all wet..ehhe~
I had tasted the one i made..it actually turns out very well!!!XD
And i mad loves it~!!!
One more thing..It’ll be good recipe for vegetarians.~!!
9 simply steps to make it^^
Go ahead to try on someday ~!you wont regret!!yummay!!!!!
01.For being patient with me. 02.For being the most honest person that I know. 03.For your forgiveness even though i had hurt you badly... 04.For making me feel comfortable around you. 05.For being true to yourself. 06.For being my early morning buddy. 07.For being my bug lazy piggy^^ 08.For being my loser=P 09.For being the sweetest person that I know. 10.For making me laugh. 11.For being the corniest, yet the funniest person that I know. 12.For being my greatest blessing. 13.For accepting me and everything that I am. 14.For sharing your life with me. 15.For allowing me to share my life with you. 16.For sharing your dreams with me. 17.For comforting me when I cry. 18.For letting me pour out everything to you.( u always did that no matter what)WTFish.. 19.For listening to me when I need to rant. 20.For listening to me when I just need to talk. 21.For being there for me.(even u are 7970.22 miles away from me) 22.For understanding everying that I am. 23.For everything that you are. 24.For cheering me up with that PORORO intro song when I'm all bummed out. 25.For assuring me that everything will be okay. 26. For making me strong for the past few months 27.For skype or chat with me, even when you're already tired and sleepy.(maybe sometimes u dont..lazy pig=P) 28.For the little things that you do.(cute finger couple picha^^) 29.For never doubting me. 30.For being a devil...=p...actually u're like my guardian angel pig...=) 31.For always being true to your words. 32.For the special things you do for me. 33.For treating me well.not JACKASS...XD 34.For the inquisitive person that you are. 35.For being great at turning your feelings into poetry. 36.Because you make me smile. 37.Because you make me happy. 38.Because you make me feel complete with you. 39.Because you make me want noone else in the world. 40.Because you make me feel that i am the special one. 41.Because I can tell you everything. 42.Because you sing OH MY GODESS to me! hehehe! ^^;; 43.Because you showed ur sexy leg for me too! haha! XD 44.Because you're my life's inspiration. 45.Because you make my life wonderful by being part of it. 46.Because you give me a reason to anticipate waking up every morning. 47.Because you taught me the meaning of unconditional love. 48.Because you never fail to brighten up my day. 49.Because you make me feel good about myself.^_^ 50.Because you make me proud of you. 51. Because u never complain about how annoying i am.. =P 52.Because you're everything I ever hoped for... and more. 53.Because you add color to my life. 54.Because you allow me to just be myself. 55.Because you make it so easy to love you. 56.Because you always know exactly what to say. 57.Because you help me understand myself better. 58.Because you make me laugh when I want to cry. 59.Because you take good care of me. 60.Because you make me smile everytime my phone beeps. 61.Because even if you say that you're not perfect, to me, you still are. 62.Because you were definitely worth the wait eventhough u are not mine YET =) 63.Because you believe in me. 64.Because you always manage to plaster a silly smile on my face. 65. Because no matter how we quarrel..we will end up saying sorry to each other and ..go on,.=) 66.Because you still find time for me, even when you're busy. 67.Because you teach me so many things about life and also my assignment..eheh 68.Because I'm at my happiest when I'm with you. 69.Because you make me look forward ... 70.Because... I JUST DO! :)
PIG..... i did what you asked me to =)..even..there is more than 50 reasons to explain how much i like you..suprise hun..? I spent my whole evening for doing this... ahhh...i am stupid...as usual..But...I will just continue being stupid when i am infront of you...then u can TAP my head and scold me..PABO..face to face..=)
SORRY guysssssssssssss~!!!! once again...i left my blog for almost a month..>.< busY....buSY.....bUSY....BUSY!!!!
anyway...27/03/2011.... Thanks god...the ultimate kid and his mummy came back from Japan safety~!!! As usual....we accompany him and his mama for one week=) and lil naughty kenta get to experience the very 1st *清明节* chinese festival..
He is behind me.....blek...after the pray..**ignored my super duper tired and pimplesssss face=.=*
Ultimate Kid and MOI...~^^Y
Back then...we received a call.. My aunt from Damansara...invite us to go over her house...and swim at the Tropicana Club... He was so excited and keep on said..Vivian jie jie go swim go swim..^^ awwww..how cute is him...
so yea..we reached Damansara Height and had tea time there^^ THE HAUTE FOOD CO....
Nice ambiance althought its a bit small..
But yea..good enough for us^^
hmmm..picking picking..... Finally i ordered the Iced Pepermint Lemon Tea ... For the 1st sip..it tasted weird..but its all good after a few sip later^^
My scone and juice^^Y yuammy~~~~
Smoked Beef Sandwich
This chocolate moist cake + vanilla ice cream is a very nice combination..but...too sweet for me>.<
Orange Lemonade Cake...hmmm..so far so good^^
NOW...this may looks YUCKS....but it taste YUMMMMM~!!!! Proudly presented...BANANA PUDDING + Vanilla ice cream!~！！
FULLL......XD... Then we went to SS2...looks for some BAGUA... ADULTS...busy picking good....then what are we kids doing????
I am forcing my brother to take a picture of he wearing my bow!!!!XD... and my mum did help too!!XD
Here we go..he got addicted=.=
Of course..the ultimate kid cant run away from me!!!hehehehhehe~
Aunty eugene~so embarassing!LOL
6 a.m... OFF WE GO TO SWIM..!
SORRY~NO BIKINI PIC OF MINE..BUAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA
almost 7.30 pm when we finished..>.<
put down our stuff to the car..then we went to Spring Garden..the restaurant^^
Ultimate kid with my brother~
Cute Aunty MAMI AND my MUMMY~! AND finally~food is served^^
Salad Prawn Balls..
Steamed Fish with Carrot and lettuce~
Orstich meat^^yummay~
Honey Chicken Balls...DA BEST!!!!
Golden soya Tofu...
Japanese Tofu with Vege
And Finally...butter cream cuttlefish....~!!!! 100% GOOD AHHHHHH~~~ we go for the last session of bowling ~!!!
And guess what..i broke my nails again..T^T... wtf~~~ anyway..i finally reached home at 11pm>.<
Goodbye Kenta... Stay healthy and be a good boy ya..=) Sorry for cant sending you to the airport tomorrow.. Take care=)
